As I wake up in the morning the sun is rising, the birds are chirping and I lay in bed enjoy the sunlight streaming into my bedroom.
At least that’s how I imagine it.
In reality, I normally wake up to an alarm going off for the tenth time because I hit snooze the nine other times. I attempt to get out of bed so I can wake before my boys and have quiet peaceful time before they wake up. Other days I wake up to my alarm and see one or both of my boys snuggled in bed beside me. On those mornings I am lucky enough to be able to shut off my alarm and enjoy the smell of their hair, the warmth of them next to me and fall back asleep because these days won’t last much longer.
My boys are 5 and 7. They don’t want to snuggle as much anymore, so I stop whatever I am doing when they ask for snuggles. I can put off anything for a few more minutes with them. It doesn’t last long anymore. They say the days are long, but the years are short. I feel that now.
I remember when all they wanted to do was snuggle. As babies all they wanted was Mama. As toddlers they reveled in my attention. But as little boys they do what all little boys do. They explore, they jump they wrestle, they climb. I miss those snuggles.
Funny thing is, I love where we are now too. I love that they can tell me what they want, need, and dream about. They can put words to their cries, their anger, and their fears. I love being able to talk with them about what they are passionate about.
What a world we as mothers live in. I simultaneously miss the days in the past, love the ones in the present and look forward to the times ahead. Before I had kids I had no idea I could love this much, nor did I realize how my view on time could change either. There is an ebb and flow to time now, but the one thing that will never change is my love for them.
About the Author
Hi I’m Jasmine. I’m a 30-something Mama who loves to read, adventure and spend time with my 2 boys. I blog over at www.dowhatyoulovemama.com and would love for you to join me there or on any of my social media channels (my fave is Twitter right now! (link for my Twitter is www.twitter.com/dowhatyoulovema))