Being a mom ain’t too bad.
Honestly. Going into motherhood I was terrified. I would be plagued by so many fears and worries that I had a hard time focusing on anything else. In a handful of months I knew that I would be responsible for the health and well-being of a human being.
That’s a huge commitment. Of all the commitments I’ve made in my life, giving life to a tiny person was the biggest and most daunting. I was worried that I wouldn’t be good enough, or that I would somehow “screw” my kid up. What if I wasn’t an affectionate mother? What if my children grew up to resent me?
What if? What if? What if? The what if’s could become awful and once I started down that slippery slope it was a fast drop down. If it wasn’t for my amazing husband I probably would’ve been consumed by these fears and thoughts the entire pregnancy.
But I wasn’t, and I have him to thank for it. In the midst of all the fears I had, I realized that I was really excited about having a baby. This was the opportunity for a new start, to do things that I wish my parents did with me. I realized that in a handful of months I would be able to hold someone and love someone unconditionally without feeling judged. I would be raising a baby who’s future is wide-open for him or her to do with as they please.
While it hasn’t always been sunshine and rainbows, or at the very least smiles and laughter, every moment as a mom has been a unique experience that I cherish daily. From the first moment I held our son I felt an instant burst of emotions. There was a sudden rush of love and excitement and just joy. This joy remains present every single day.
It’s there when I first wake up and see his smiling face. I feel it again when I watch my husband playing with our son. I’m reminded of it when I use thoughts of his smile to brighten my day at work. It embraces me when I walk through the door and hear his laughter or his cries.
When I look at pictures with our son in it I feel as though my heart just swells with love from the happiness and life shining in our son’s eyes. Being a mom can become confusing, tiring, challenging, but overall amazing.
Everything is new and different, and while there are many tutorials, books, blogs and guidelines to follow, being a mom is whatever you make of it. As cliche as this might sound, the journey of motherhood is an individual road. There’s no one way to do everything, and as a mom I’ve realized that I need to do what’s best for my baby and family.
I have loved every moment of the last 6 months. While I’m not a perfect mom and there’s still a lot for me to learn and discovery, I’m excited for it. Being a mom is amazing, and it’s one of the best things to happen to me.
About the Author
I’m a blogger of parenthood and an advocate for mental health. My motto is to Live, Laugh and Learn! In addition to being a momma with a 6 month old son, and new to the blogger community, I’m an aspiring author and hope to publish my book in 2018! Follow us on Instagram @smithhouseholdblog for updates of our little family.